Where would i be ?
there are many more questions in my mind..
feeling devastated and lost ..
i see no hope nor future..
there are so many unhappiness !
seriously i dunno bring myself out of this ..
although i know that i shoudlnt have those negative thinking
but its hard (only if u know how i feel)
yes! i know that many friends asked my to cheer up and telling me that everything would be alright..
but i know that they are just trying their v.best to cheer me up..
and im sorry to say that all i can do is just forcing myself to smile..
but at the end of the day im still feeling down ..
i wan to be happier too ..
but i simply cant..
these few weeks are bad times..
everyday during the night or when i've nth to do i start to think all thoes negative things again..
and always end up crying ..
i hate it..
but what can i do ?!
there's nobody to help me !
i cant blame anybody !
its my own fault that i didnt do well..
yes my teacher had been telling me that she can see i did try my best
but im still too late !
and now all i can blame its me myself and nobody else !
and its too late to regret !
ps: everything seems so near yet so far ):
