its always cold and lonely ..
having lots of thoughts which is often negative ..
being lost and helpless..
there's nothing that i can do ..
YES! i hate it ..i really do ..
hoping that some of the stuff would be untrue..
waking up and and wish that its just a dream ..
i know that it will never happen just i just have to face the fact ..
its after a month already .
it still pop out in my mind every now and then ..
tears would be rolling in my eyes but i know that will not solve the problem ..
however..it still happens to me most of the night ..
just have to sobs till i fall asleep ..
