I've been asking myself this question many times but up till now I still couldn't find the answer .
I always envy my sister so much, she's like the princess that everybody will dote and care for her.
At home when when she caused a problem it will be forgotten after minutes and will be forgiven, because at the end of the day the problem had became my problem.
She have everybody for her, like my dad. During the night when I'm using the computer dad will come in and scold me and say that my sis is sleeping, but the truth is she's hiding in her blanket playing with her phone and fake to sleep when my dad comes in. So it seems like I'm always doing the wrong thing.
But when I need to sleep, there's no such privilege for me. Dad will only ask her to sleep early and it's alright to use the computer in the room but just keep the volume low. He didn't realized that the lights is on too. How unfair is that. Or, for most of the time sis will be on the phone with Faith and it's for hours ! When I asked her to continue her conversation the other day she just ignored and trying the chat in a softer volume which makes no different.
When she's upset or that something troubles her. Faith will be there for her, lending her a listening ear. But when they quarrel, it will become my problem again. My sis will be pissed for most of the time and then will tell me that she's v.unhappy or if I'm unlucky she will throw tantrum at me. And Faith would be the emo one and message me that she don't know what to do and she's v.upset and stuff so with no choice I must always think of things to chill my sis and cheer Faith .
However, when I'm upset there's nobody for me but myself . Why is it like this ? There's nobody to hear me out and nobody who understands me. When they need help I'm there. But when I need help, whose for me ?
Once again the question pop into my mind .
