Seriously I think that I don't deserve such treatment.
You said that my words aren't making sense, and you hate it when people coax you to cheer up. But I'm just trying my best, and if you think that words are cheap; no sincerity, then i'm sorry maybe that apply to you only. If I don't bother, I won't even text you. But because I care that's why I text. I treat you as my good/best friend, but i'm utterly disappointed after seeing your reply. I know that I should keep you company, because you’re at your lowest but did you spare a thought for me as well? I have my work, before I go off I need to complete my part as well, put yourself in my shoes, if your teammates are doing their work and you suddenly disappear, what would they think?
You may think that it might just be for a while, and that the module is easy but we are just different for my team we have to discuss. Yes, I’m selfish; I care about my grades compared to good/best friend, because I don’t have good grades and I don’t want to make it worse. And for what you want to think; I can’t stop you. But seriously if I don’t care I won’t even text.
You expect me to skip my meeting to check if you were alright, but I’m sorry I’m unable to do that. It is very rude and irresponsible.
You asked me to choose among the question, and said that it comes with high expectations and everything. Hello, I am your friend be it good/best or normal, but not your girlfriend. The question you asked is like you are asking me whether the bird in your hand is dead or alive. If I say alive, you will crush it dead. If I say it’s dead, you will keep it alive. Like what your question is saying, either one of my replies, there will be consequences.
Saying that the fact that I can’t even treat you nicely consistently, someone who will be always there for you. Then I would like to know, how you define nice. I have always trying to be a good/best friend but it seems like it’s never enough for you.
I know you might be upset/hurt but do you even know you had hurt me twice as hard. As though there are millions of knifes stabbing into my heart. I want to cry so badly but I find that I’m so foolish crying for someone who doesn’t even care or no longer wants to be friend with me. But still I have to say you’re a nice friend, and I appreciate for what you have done, your kindness and everything. Thank you.
I’m not a mind reader, if you don’t speak up then I won’t be able to know what you are thinking.
You should know that i'm always there fro you, maybe not physically but mentally.
This was the second time that you make me feel so awful.
hugs and kisses || 10:59 PM